Twisted Feelings

PP the rabbit
2007-2010

The last 2 days has been really hard for me. I lost my lovely rabbit named PP for some unknown reasons. It happened right bore 9PM Wednesday. On the way home I bought him favorite veggies, then I came home seeing him lying flatly on the floor. The image I saw was unexplainable. I was in shock, I couldn't believe this is really happening.

PP was the male rabbit that my mom brought him home 2 and a half years ago. At first I had mixed feelings about having a pet our house. But we grew to love him as time gone by. I put him on my self-phone to remind me of a home when I was away from home. He was the one that brought our family together. Having PP was like having a baby you never had because despite the change in size, he was always your kid. It was easy to forgive him, even though he broke my laptop adapters 3 times already. When I came home, the first thing I did was looking for him. It feels so weird that now I don't have anyone to watch over my house anymore.

I can write more just how I feel about PP. My sis has already express her feelings on her blog. This week is a week full of mixed emotions. I'm glad that my sis and my friends has graduated. At the same time, it's been sad. I'm still sad, and I have to get over this feeling fast. But it's still kinda hard.

Last night I was youtubing my favorite songs, the songs that I can relate to, the songs that I cry to. I came up with a few of them that I thought maybe I can use them in my funeral. But that's not the point. These songs are just like medicine, they slowly heals you as time goes by.

• I listen to "circle of life" from the lion king and I cried so hard, I cry just about every time I heard this song for no reason.
• The first song I played as a tribute to PP is Bye Bye from Mariah Carey, she's so great for summing up my feelings in one simple song.
• Here without you from 3 doors down is really the first song I can absolutely relate to. It was hit around the time of my dad's passing. 7 years ago, I cry really hard when hearing this song.
  
• Gone too soon from MJ is so full of emptiness. It may not explain your feeling much, but listen to this, you'll feel like the one who's gone has gone to a better place.
• Wind Beneath My Wings from Bette Midler makes me cry so bad just be listening to the lyrics.

• I ended the grieve by listening to From the distance by Bette Midler. But it's not the end, you just have to move on.

Finally, I would like to thank you to all my friends who make this week better just by having a dinner and chatting with you guys. It was a great getaway from all sadness. Ploy, Fai and all of The pujjek group are the best of friends. And I would like to thank Mr.Komsit for calling me back after 2 miss calls and wait to take a photo with me on MRT, I appreciate it alot :)

Now it's time to move on. PP, I'm so thankful for the time we have together. And to the friends, I hope we'll keep in touch, whether it is just a little hello. BTW, I hope to finish my NAN city presentation within weekend. And I can stay focus and stabilize my emotions.