รู้สึกเครียดที่สุดในชีวิต…………..

At this time of my life……22, on the verge of 5th year in college. I have never felt more intense in my life. And Yes, I’ve been feeling pressure from works before. But it has never tougher than this time. It is all because of Construction Management Class.

From Friday to Wednesday, I worked non-stop. But knowing that the design work I had to submit can’t be done within 4 days, I ask my teacher to extend the dateline. I’ve got my wish. Then I started to do other works that must be done as well. But I’m feeling pressure  every time I think about it. Just wish it could go away……hopefully it will within few days.

My favorite sport, and my Idol

I actually wanted to write about this long time ago, but haven't until this time of month.

On January 29, I heard one of the saddest news ever, is that my favorite football player is retiring.

His name is Kurt Warner, he is a former NFL quarterback. I have been following him since I was in Matthayom 2. It could be said that I grew up idolizing him, since he is one of the first real-life inspirational stories I have known.

His story is amazing. It is not just about his talent playing football. I can say that the way he live his life can be inspiration to everybody looking for a real prototype person. The one who dedicated his lives to others on and off the field.

Kurt Warner had a rough start coming into the league. In 1994, he was not drafted by any NFL team. He signed a free agent with Green Bay Packers to be their 4th QB on the roster, only to be cut by a team a few weeks later.

However, that does not stop him from realizing his dream. During the time he was out of job, Kurt was working bagging groceries on a night shift at Hy-Vee while looking for another football gig. He worked there for a few months before finally land a job with an upstart Iowa Barnstormers of the Arena Football League. This league is where he finally showcased his talent. He was one of the best player there for 3 years before finally land another opportunity with an NFL team.

First, it was with Chicago Bears. However, he suffered an injury during honeymoon. Then it was with the St. Louis Rams, where he signed a contract to be their 3rd string QB in 1997. He was sent to NFL Europe for a season before coming back as a 3rd QB.

His opportunity finally came in 1999 season. He was elevated to backup role, then to the starting role after the team's starter, Trent Green, went down with a knee injury that kept him out of sideline for the rest of the season. In the 1999 season, he went from national curiosity to become an NFL superstar within 4 months. Kurt captured an MVP award, as well as leading his team to become a world champion in the same season.

Between 1999-2001 season, the St. Louis Rams was known as the greatest show on turf because of their electrifying offense, led by all-pro QB in Kurt Warner, Running Back Marshall Faulk and Speedy receivers Isaac Bruce and Torry Holt. I came to know the team during the 2001 season when I watch the reruns of St. Louis Rams and Philadelphia Eagles game. I remember how much fun I had watching the Rams team. Their move still stuck on my mind these days.

The 2001 season ended with the Rams losing Super Bowl to New England Patriots in a closing match. Again, I remembered how sad I was that time. Since then, Warner suffered a hand injury, he was replaced by his backup Marc Bulger. Since 2005, the Rams has gone downhill to a one-win team in 2009 season.

However, this is not the end of the road for Kurt. He was then released in 2003 season, found himself sitting back and forth between football field and the bench. He was a mentor to 2 first -round pick QBs before finally on a starting in 2008 season.

The 2008 season was his next breakout season. That year, the Arizona Cardinals had one of the best passing offense in the league. The team advanced to Super Bowl before losing to the Pittsburgh Steelers in one of the most exciting Super Bowl ever, and I watched that game several times also.

Then Warner would play for another season. The Arizona Cardinals would advance to playoffs before losing to the New Orleans Saints, an eventual champion on divisional round. As I watch that game, I got a sense that this would be his last game.

Finally 2 weeks later, he would announce his retirement at the age of 38. He have left the game with many breakout records. But what he want us, the fans to remember that, with all the road he has taken, anything is possible if you believe in yourself.

Beside his work on the field, he is also very active in charity off the field. His charity, first thing first, has helped children and family around the states with many programs.

Overall, I think Kurt Warner is one of great role model. He is a living example of never give up on your dream, and never let obstacle bother you.

I just had a lot of things in my mind.........

This has been one of the weirdest week I've ever had in my entire life. It is weird, as well as worst than I ever had.
During the week, I am patiently waiting for my internship result. I know it is not guarantee whether I will get a job or not. During this time of the week, I can't remain positive.It is too much of a wait and in the meantime.....I have to look for alternatives also. Just to make sure that I WILL get a job.

On the last 3 to 4 days, I have been doing report that will be submitted on Thursday. It still has 250 words left. But I believe I overdo it so much that I completely forgot I have a work to submit on Tuesday....

How Stupid I am!

I realize it once my teacher call me. I admit I had stomachache during the week. But that is not the reason why I just didn't do the work I am supposed to. Thank god that my teacher reschedule the date. I have more time to do it and I promise I'll do my best.

This week is one of the week I show my stupidity. I realize this is the final week of me being a 4th year student. I guess I didn't grow up the way I like myself to be.

These things all over me are way to much......and I just can't let it go, even though I have to.

Stressful? Intense?

When I work, there are times when I feel so stressful that I can't work anymore. This kind of time happens so much after few hours of work. I would feel so much pressure around my head and I just fell completely hitting rock bottom. I would get away, escape and do something that I feel enjoy doing while I'm free. For example, I would watch the hilights of NFL games I like. Watch some TV or listen to music. Those are all kind of things people do on free time, right? Maybe that isn't enough. So if it doesn't work, I would just lay down in bed and go to sleep. But what if I'm not sleepy? I would do something else, such as chores.

Recently, I tried traditional ways. So I bought inhaler for the cost of 22 baht. Just feel like something aromatic to do and I hadn't used it quite a while. As a result, I feel pretty OK after inhaling. It's kinda like ways to regain my concentration back. It's one of the helpful way I tried, like aromatherapy on the palm of your hand.

New Year 2010

Less than 2 hour, it’ll be 2010. I must realize that within months I’ll be 22! Well, times fly be so fast, especially for myself who tends to stuck in the moment. From now on, I may have to think what I have to do for the next 10 years or more. But I wasn’t sure yet.

As long as I can remember, I have so many dreams of how I would want to be when I’m done studying. The first dream I had is I want to write. I want to write a story, a novel that is emotional and beautiful. I really want it so much that I start some plots for myself. I think that whenever I have a free time. I’m gonna develop the stories to fulfill my dreams.

Next dream is the dream that I’ve been working on for 4 years now. It is becoming an architect. The dreams I have is fulfilling my family’s dream of designing and owning a single house. That is something I’m working on right now. Once that’s done, it’s done. I don’t know if I like to continue the architectural career in the future. Cause I know it’s an stressful job. Anyway, I have to try it first.

Last dream is among the most wildest dream I have. This dream, I never think of it until freshmen year. That year I have a chance to play on a stage. My role is very small but memorable. I played the witch whose alias are 3 beautiful lady. After the play is over, audiences remember me outside the stage. In addition, I also demonstrate the play of other characters as well.

After the play is over, I realized that this is what I want to continue to do. If I get an opportunity, I may have a career from it. And I’m not kidding!

At the end of this blog, I just want to think that I think people can accomplish so many things if we search for it, enjoy doing it, reach for it and not getting rattle easily----which is a difficult thing to do! 

Movie I watch…..and What I want in it

Yesterday, after dark, I went to youtube and watch one of the most controversial movie in Thai film’s industry. It was ผู้หญิง 5 บาป or sin sisters. The movie is about 5 women telling stories related to sexual relationship that becomes sins for them.

The topic of the film is already controversial. The scenes are even more. I don’t have to explain much that this movie is entirely about sex…….so normally there’s so much of it. I did enjoy it, though it look a bit more like porn than normal theatrical films.

What even surprises me more is the ending of the film. I don’t need to tell just how unrelated it is to the whole story. I was just shock to see it end that way.

BTW, I heard there’ll be more sequel to this film. I bet men will like it. And I’m doubt if I would like to see it in cinema or not. But hopefully, the sequel would be much less delusional than the first movie.

The story of twitter......

I'm not so sure what to write in a long paragraph. Maybe I am too obsessed with twitter so much that almost everything that comes into my head, I tweeted that down immediately. As a result, my tweets are full of things like "What am I doing?" and "What's on my mind?". Some of my tweets are messages sent to my sister or friends, and few of them are what I would like to share to everyone.

For months, I am trying to lobby to get some of my friends use twitter more. Because I believe it is a great communication tools that can be easily accessible everywhere. Especially if you have mobile phone with edge, you can easily express what's on your mind or what you see within minutes. Besides, it is a great tool for killing time while you're out. For me, I use twitter to follow the news, website and people that I'm interested in.

For example, I'm interested in Architecture, so I follow @archdaily and other architecture websites to see it they post any new projects out. I also follow NFL league and teams as well to update the current events around the league. In addition to that, I also follow people such as celebrities and my friends to see what they are up too and communicate to them sometimes in a form of mentions(@) or direct message.

One of the most useful things I found about twitter is how well I could feel myself updated to every current events around. For instance, this past week, I found out about the death of PM Samak Sunthoravej through twitter. And today, I also report that I wrote a praise about my sister for the English homework. My sister reply me immediately without me having to signup on MSN.

In conclusion, I believe that twitter is a useful social networking website and suitable for those who like to express themselves. It doesn't matter that you have to write what it's on your mind to everyone. Remember, twitter is the real social world, the world know what you are talking about. Therefore, you have to be selective and choose the write in a twit-verse.