Life and Dreams.....

I felt like I frequently bragged about things. It's difficult for me to let go sometimes. What I usually do is looking on the other side, on other people's perspective, come back to me and learn from mistakes.

Last Friday was really hard for me EMOTIONALLY. I talked to my friends over the phone while sneeking out @work, and on our meeting on Saturday. We talked about common things @work, financial planning and future plan. What I realized was that it is very important to be motivated, do the best you can regardless of situation and know where you are in the company.

Enough with the work talk, but more with the dreams.

I have lots of things going on inside my head, but they aren't organized. So I believe it is a time to organize a lot of things.........time, dream, money, etc.


You know that you have is not enough.

Pressure, Drama and Controversy

I remember sitting on an Aerosvit flight on my way 2 Kiev few months ago. Before the flight took off, I walked around a gigantic King Power duty free shop window, shopping. I walked around, not realizing that the time was running up until I got a called from the operator to be on board immediately. At that time, I looked on to my stuff, realizing I didn't bring any book to read during the flight. So I ended up buying a new one so I could find something to do during my spare time.

Back to my place, my house where I'm sitting right now. On my right, I see stack of books and magazines, ranging from novels, design books and magazines that I never get to finish. I never know when I will be able to, but I know that someday I will.

I think the key to successful reading is enjoy and absorb the moment.....enough with my reading problems.


After my memorable trip in Romania. I realized that the new chapter of my life had begun.

I'm working in a corporate office. But there's no way I will give up on my favorite past time, watching American football.

2 years after my favorite player had retired, I'm still all excited when the season began. It was like automatic. I knew when the game starts. I feel excited every weekend, mostly after midnight.

This is my 10th anniversary of me following NFL. I can say to myself that I'm football junkie. If there is a contest for biggest NFL fan, I think I can compete among the guys.

And because NFL is a quarterback-driven league. I had seen many stories and controversies that involved quarterbacking position, from Brady and Bledsoe(2 great QBs on their own terms), Drew Brees to Phillip Rivers(2 great ones on the same team in San Diego Chargers), or Kurt Warner and Marc Bulger(As a ram fan, this one hurts the most. but it's understandable now). However, the one I'm seeing now surprises me the most because it basically had nothing to do with players' performance.

Because I don't watch college football (why should I? I have zero connection with American college teams. Hopefully I might have one in the future, then I'll root for one of them), I didn't have any love for Tim Tebow beside hearing his name from the press. When I watched Tebow threw, it was the first time I can easily take notice of the QB's throwing motion.

Every time I watch Denver Broncos, I can feel the pressure of the starting QB. He's a good guy and better QB at this moment. Now that he's benched, I wish him well at the next stop. I believe he will be a starter again in NFL.......

This is just one of the story I follow during the NFL season. I know this might sound silly, but I believe in sportmanship. I follow the stories of men in pads. I read the stories, watched the documentaries. Those stories inspire me in a lot of ways......

Back to reality......really real

It's been a while since I last blogged. I never plan, or intend to blog for purpose. It is just my way of practicing English and share something out. Today I just feel like to, so there you go.....

Before this blog, I wrote about how my life was in Bucharest, but actually never finish it. The other one I wrote in Thai, I stated about how excited I was knowing that my favorite Thai actor is coming back with new lakorn. I just leave it there. I am a fan of Thai lakorn, just like Latin telenovelas, they are somewhat exciting, sometimes unpredictable, with an ending that was supposed to be know by everybody(because that is how one show is promoted). Somehow everybody seems to watch it because of other reasons. They may want to see how the story was re-make(There are 10 of remake lakorns being made every 10-15 years), how the actors performed, or how the screenplay was like. For me, I'm interested at the latter.

Unfortunately, many novels that were chosen for screenplay are sometimes "cliche", or worse "delusional". I could imagine how many story lines were re-written all over with only changes are the name of the title and characters. I couldn't imagine how many plots involved with main female protagonist being forced to marry to another man.....and so on.

But that's not the point, I believe that writers could write 100 scenarios with this kind of starting plot. And I guess that is the beauty of romance novels.

I'm a kind of person who believe in "substance". I think it is important to get the message out through storytelling. The way you tell the story must be "convincing", "interesting" and most importantly....."reasoning".

Yesterday I read the thread on famous Thai webboard. The forum starter talked to the directer of one lakorn, being produced by 7-color channel. He talked about how he couldn't find a screenwriter for his newly producing lakorn because the plot was so old, and he wanted to make it "reasonable". And it is the job of a writer, and probably the producer, to make it happen.

This is a reason why I always want to read novels, I just never really make an effort to read those. So, today, while I was having a hard time walking on heels, I stop @B2S on Central Ladprao to pick up random books from the Thai novel section. And I was disappointed.

I thought I picked up the right one to be made into lakorn, but not for reading enjoyably. Because the plot is so similar to what I've seen on TV, it started without any good reason, and the main guy seemed over exaggerated at times.

So I decided that, beside cosmetics, skincare, CDs and architecture books, I would love to buy some novel and read. It was my aspiration, even before I studied to become architect, to write a story, a novel. I later became interested in writing a screenplay after I saw countless movies, series, dramas, telenovelas and lakorn.

I always admire those who go after their dreams. We can always have multiple dreams, and many of them can be successful it you know how to manage them. After graduation and an unforgettable journey in Romania, I felt empty at times. I felt like I had no commitment left. And the only commitment I have is to myself, whether I wanted to live lives and set those rules, it is all to me ,for me and for my family.

To be continue.......